2009 01 24 In Memorium
One year ago we lost our beloved Abby. To be exact it was the evening of January 21, 2008. Abby was a Newfoundland dog, a faithful companion to the end. She died peacefully at home surrounded by those who loved her, John, Seth and me. She was assisted in her passing peacefully by our kind vet, Bob Turrou.
I missed Abby terribly for many months. Like the loss of any loved one (human or animal) I missed all those moments when I expected to see her, coming around the corner of the house outside, or barking to go outside to sit with us by the garden in the evening, or to engage us in a game of tug ‘o war in the living room, or to beg for some people food when we ate dinner at night. I missed not having to step over her when I got out of bed, or having to fix her food the way she liked. Everything in everyday life reminded me that she wasn’t there.
Then gradually with time I became accustomed to her absence as I took on new routines that did not include her. I stopped thinking about her every single day. But I often look out across our property at the grassy area under the ash tree where her grave marker has an orange ribbon blowing in the wind.
We love dogs and I look forward to the day when we will be ready to get dogs again. We want 2 Newfoundlands. But right now is not the right time. We are busy trying to get our home businesses going. We have some major outdoor projects to do and want to fence in the entire property so dogs can run freely. I am not afraid to get another dog for fear I am “replacing” Abby. She can’t be replaced. And I am not of the mind that I loved her so much I don’t want to get attached to another dog. The timing just isn’t right for giving a puppy (or puppies) the time they need and deserve. We will know when that time is right.